Being Sick Sucks, and other Random Thoughts


So I am sitting on my bed at home, too tired to sleep (?!), a symbolic pillow shoved in my head, with a cup of coffee, a box of tissues, and my beloved MacBook Pro. Nyquil is running through my veins (I wish you could see how many typing errors I’ve had to correct!)

I hate to be sick – not just for the obvious reasons, but because I don’t like to miss work and do nothing. Yet, I am not focused enough right now to finish my last essay – and that sucks. Oh wait, Deana doesn’t like that word……so it bites. And then I wonder, what makes a word “bad”? Like gay….it used to be a word for happiness and now, well, most people think of something else. Or even the word “bad”, which can sometimes mean good. Hell, I think I am on a drug induced ride right now. Oh wait, maybe I should not have said hell…..

And then I wonder, why do I think I know people? I mean, know them enough to think I can describe how they will be if they are promoted or under stress or whatever. Or why am I surprised to realize I have become very close with someone that I never expected too….so much that I can be myself? Well, that probably doesn’t make much sense – blame the Nyquil, but I am sitting here amazed that I am missing some very dear friends right now more than I thought possible. And all because of a freaking cold! Damn.

Then I am wondering, what makes people insecure? Is it because they need more than others? Or is it because they don’t realize how much they are loved, esteemed, valued…..fill in the word. How does one balance between feeling overly confident and insecure? Why do some fall apart when they make a mistake and another shrug with indifference? How does one find the middle ground?

Oh now I KNOW I am sick! LOL

Okay, I was hoping to burn time with this post – which I have, but more deleting my typos than anything else – yet the day is still young! Sigh.

My friends (whom I miss so much) and my enemies (I even miss you!), I must now leave.

What happens in Vegas……Corrected

Okay, so maybe not EVERYTHING stays in Vegas!

We had a pretty good time visiting each other – the reunion of Deana, Rona, Stepha, and I was a success. It was like we were just together days ago! It was a long flight – it seemed – maybe because Rona and I hung out at the airport for about an hour and a half waiting for Deana and Stepha. But when they arrived you should have seen Rona run! I didn’t know she could run! LOL Anyway, we got to the hotel after midnight on Friday – Planet Hollywood, which used to be The Alladin – and our room was very nice. We went out for a bit, then ordered room service and slept (can you say PARTY PEOPLE????).

Saturday we ate, hung out, did some minor gambling, went to the AWESOME exhibit showing the Human Bodies…..we’re talking real bodies with their muscles out, seeing organs, learning about their functions, etc. IT WAS AMAZING! I don’t think I really appreciated how wonderfully God made us up until that point! Seeing a real uterus and realizing how freaking SMALL it is and how big my children were when they were born blew me away! Miraculous thoughts popped up throughout our walk through the exhibit!

We then went to a comedy show with Joe Rogan, who is the host for Fear Factor. He is very short! But he and two other comedians were very funny and my side was hurting pretty badly.

Sunday, there was more eating and then we went to get TATTOOS! We were going to go to Heavenly Tattoos, but our taxi driver suggested Diversity Tattoos which he said was bigger and more people ask to go there. It WAS a very nice place and they had computers all over to select tats. You could even access the internet to find pictures. There was only one tattoo artist when we arrived so we had to wait a while – another came in and that helped.

And, I know you all are wondering, why would I want a tattoo??? Well, I already had two, which I got on my 39th birthday. One is the logo for Not of This World, the Christian clothing line. Don’t have a pic of that, but included the logo here – although my tat is black.

The other tattoo I already have is the signature of my Dad’s initials, which he wrote himself and he also has had that tattoo for my entire life (well, probably even before I was born!). These two are on my left and right back shoulders respectively.

Anyway, I found a Christian tattoo from a Christian tattoo site (http://www.religioustattoos.net/index.php) that I really liked. I took the pic in, they gave me a quote, and then I waited my turn. Here is the finished result – it is not a good quality pic but it gets it across. It is a Jesus Fish with ΙΧΘΥΣ in it surrounded by decorative design.

I think it came about pretty nice, but let me tell you…..IT FREAKING HURT LIKE HELL!!!!! I knew I was in trouble because Stepha went first and her tat was in the middle of her upper back, too, although smaller than mine. The look on her face when he started told me THIS WAS GOING TO HURT! I was called just as Stepha’s was finishing…..here is her tat:

So, I am getting psyched up so that I can bear the pain. I didn’t cry or anything, but the pain shot through me like the feeling when you hit your funny bone! It shot down my whole body to the tips of my toes! Lamaze didn’t help me much with childbirth, but it worked wonders for this tattoo! LOL IT was worth it though because I love it.

The rest of Vegas, well it isn’t that exciting…..although I need to leave SOME of it there just for tradition sake! We had a tough time leaving though – not only emotionally, but physically! The flight that Rona and I took was delayed over 1 1/2 hours because a valve had to be replaced in our engine….supposedly a minor fix, but we had to wait for the engine to cool so that the mechanic could get to it. Deana and Stepha suffered much worse; their flight was scheduled for 6:30 was delayed until 11pm (!!!!) and they didn’t get home until 2:30 in the morning SORRY THIS WOULD BE 4:30 TEXAS TIME!!!!. I feel very badly for them, especially since no one ever said anything but just kept changing the take off time. I think they eventually even changed gates/planes! Poor girl and Stepha was worried about having to go to work today!

So, that is my update. Oh, and I won this week in Fantasy Football, bringing my record above Mark Monsees! (2-2-1 versus 2-3). In fact, looking at the Power Rankings, I am rating 3rd while Mark is in LAST PLACE! If you know Mark, or even if you don’t know him but work at ECCU, feel free to mention this via words or email! I would appreciate it!

Okay my peeps – on a side note – Finished strong at Biola. Last two bible classes ended with A’s!!! I have finished all question assignments for Romans and just have the final essay due, which I plan on finishing today or tomorrow. YES! Thanks for your prayers and support during this crazy time!

Love ya!

Pondering life in Southern Cal

Special shout out to Lori and Liz, who send me emails at work chastising me for not updating the blog! THIS ONE’S FOR YOU LADIES!

Sometimes I analyze things, not so much that I hope to get to the end, but more for the journey of the thought process. For example, I am in Southern California and the bulk of my family is in Texas. While I have homework still to do, I have a pretty depressing life here…..no one really around, I hear about updates with my boys over the phone, etc. Yet, I receive a call from my daughter, who is also in So Cal, and we decide to go out together! CHA-CHING! Some of you know my relationship with my daughter has had it’s tough moments, but this meeting was a special one because it was initiated by Kirstie. And you know what? She had been feeling much of what I’VE been feeling! Her Dad and brothers are in Texas and, well, life here in So Cal pretty much sucks! So we hung out, did homework together, and then went out to dinner…..having a good time the whole time.

Yet the fact still remains…….we are alone out here, and that sucks! I don’t think many realize how hard this is on me…..not to be pitiful, but just the feedback I’ve received from a few peeps. Yet I refuse to let the facts and other circumstances ruin what has been an amazing evening with a wonderful lady who I’ve known for 17 years!

So yea, don’t know how that ties to the way I started this blog (which, I suppose was named “Just Rambling” for a reason….), but that’s all I got!

Tomorrow, it’s off to Vegas and I hope to glean at least a bit of fun out of it! That is, if I am allowed to have fun.

Some Quick Texas Highlights

Not in order:

1. Having first an hour, then 2.5 hour delay in Phoenix
2. Deana’s tricking me at the airport, texting me she was almost there as I ran into her, texting her back, after having just went thru the security spinning thing before baggage claim.

3. Closing out CPK with Deana, Stepha, and Mike.
4. Mike scaring our pants off when we got home.
5. Seeing Zack’s face when he realized I was home – priceless!
6. Shopping for Sophia’s Cappy Birthday toy.
7. Seeing my boys and hearing their shocked comments about my hair.
8. Waking up early Sunday and going on a pontoon and wave runner for the morning – so fun!

9. Seeing Mike and Kenny catch air on the wave runner.
10. Seeing Stepha having her life saved.
11. Riding the wave runner with Josh and Kenny.
12. Watching Deana kick butt on the wave runner.
13. The girls getting ready in Deana’s bathroom.
14. Watching Mike get ready for his date with Hannah.
15. Seeing Petey, one of the guys who likes Stepha, and thinking his hair was very greasy.

16. Laughing so hard in the car as Mike and Stepha pretended to have a lover’s quarrel that I almost peed my pants.
17. Moons in Texas – ‘nuf said.

Okay, better get ready for my flight back to California!

Quotes of the Week

They are back and on track!

Conversation online with Deana:
G: yeah, but it has a nice dramatic ring to it
D: and you are so not dramatic – strange

“The Reward for a Job Well Done is Having Done It.” Anonymous (or forgotten who said this), repeated by Deana, who randomly pays her kids allowance for chores so they don’t expect to get paid for everything.

“I’m working on my five year plan. I just need to choose a font.” As heard on TV by Deana

“People who steal suck.” Gina, the day her iPod was stolen

“I would lick his sweat.” Either Stephanie P or Gina at the Justin Timberlake concert

“Are you going to use your strap on?” Mary to her daughter Victoria, who was referring to the strap on baby carrier.

“Don’t ever say that to me again” Victoria, to her mother Mary, as she put on the baby carrier.

“Ouch!” Gina, after Liz hit her several times in the arm

“You shut your mouth!” the worse cussing I’ve heard Liz say….okay, so I provoked her a little.

“God Bless America!” another unique and colorful pseudo cuss phrase from Rona

“Buy the iPhone” Heather, who is not completely objective in her suggestion

Danielle: Do you remember the name of David’s General in the Old Tetament?
Kurt: It’s in the Bible

“I am here just for Stephanie and Gina – I love them.” Justin Timberlake while performing at the Staples Center. Um, or maybe I was dreaming.

That’s all I have this week – sorry if I missed you but there’s always next week!

A Good Cause…..

Hello!

A good friend of mine – Sonya – will be in the AIDS Walk San Diego this weekend and would love any donations you might be able to give. Check out her message and link below and THANKS for reading!

Hi guys!
I’ll be participating in the AIDS Walk San Diego again this year and any donations would be greatly appreciated. It’s for a great cause so please visit my donation page. Better yet, if you want to join our team and participate in the walk, we’d love to have you!!! It will be held at Balboa Park on Sunday Sept. 30th. (Sorry for the late notice.) Thank you!

http://aidswalksd.kintera.org/faf/r.asp?t=4&i=221508&u=221508-146355661&e=1247706757

A Pain in the Neck

So yeah, my neck hurts. Is it my dumb smooshed disc? Is it stress? Is it the love seat I slept on the other night? Maybe a combination of the three, but at least I can see my chiropractor tonight at 5pm.

Theme for the week:

suck it up : to make the effort required to do or deal with something difficult or unpleasant

Yeah, not gonna elaborate on that one! But suffice it say, sometimes in this life you just gotta “suck it up”. Not everything in my life brings this, and I learned in Acts and Romans that sometimes sucky things really bring us closer to God. So, in that respect I am thankful. I am also thankful for my friends who are helping me out during this tough time of transition and what I refer to lovingly as “purgatory”. I am thankful for the home I have in the mean time and the laughter I am able to feel. It makes it easier for me to “suck up” the rest.

I got a package of letters and drawings from Texas yesterday and it was AWESOME!

A Lot about Nothing

No real comment about the pic, other than I miss everyone in Texas! I am visiting this weekend, however, so that is good! Woohoo!

Okay – update on Romans…..I have about 80 questions left and time is ticking! I have my last Acts class tonight so won’t have much time there to do it for those four hours! But I WILL MAKE IT!

Job Class – it is finished just waiting for the final grade. YES!

Work – need to find a job in Texas and it’s kind of bumming me out. There have been changes at my present work that are good, but they also make me sad. Hard to explain…..

Spent the night at Mom’s after having done my laundry – Gina is a little sore from sleeping on the love seat but happy to have clean clothes!

Jerry is moving to Texas today or tomorrow. I have moved in with a friend so that I don’t have to stay in that big house all by myself! I will check it out on the weekends.

I am still sad about my iPod but am amazed that I haven’t done anything radical, like buy an iPhone or new iPod! It helps that I will be visiting Texas this weekend and Deana will be giving me hers. But seriously, I usually don’t need much coaxing to buy new technology! SORRY HEATHER!!!!

Yesterday at work I was speaking to a CPA for a ministry I was working with. I shared my name and the man said, “You mean like the Jena Six?” Oh my word, how do you reply to that?????

Even better, Liz was talking to another ministry and was told that the delay in providing info was because the Pastor had had a colonoscopy! And that “he has had issues” or some sort of comment! TMI people!

On that note, I feel compelled to share that Liz has a very hot husband, who is obviously so very fortunate to marry such a wonderful woman! Jim U. begs her to annul the marriage and marry his son…..

Well, that’s all I got right now……must get ready for work! Tell me, why am I so unmotivated all of a sudden???? Not sure. But Gina doesn’t want to get ready for work.

And that, my friends, is a lot about nothing.

No Quotes yet….or maybe not this week

Well sorry peeps! My schedule is a little whacked this week and, well, truth be known I am kind of in a sadness mode today. Here is why…..well, let me set it up for you.

Yesterday I was very, very tired! After two nights of not much sleep, I ended up being kind of in a fog by the time I left work. I needed to go to the store though, so on the way home I stopped. When in the parking lot, I said “Okay, I can’t leave my iPod out”. I put it in the center holder of the car (why not my purse, not sure). I also did NOT put away the iPod adapter cord that I usually hide. I go into the store for about 10 minutes tops.

I come back, put my groceries in the back, and get in the car. When I opened my door it felt weird, like it was not closed all the way. A thought popped in my head and I look in the center holder…..no iPod!

I will spare the frantic searching details at this point. Who knows if they grocery workers who were taking a break outside when I arrived saw me and my iPod and took advantage of my stupidity. Who knows if I left my freaking car unlocked because I was so tired (there was no damage to the car). THANK GOD my backpack with my beloved Mac was not taken from the back of the car!!! (That is a huge positive). Freak.

So, my beautiful iPod with its 4,000+ songs has been taken from me. I feel violated and stupid/foolish mostly. I NEVER leave it in the car and this was not a good time to start. But anyway, I am sad. Deana said that I can have hers which is nice, but I am still sad. Sigh.

People who steal suck.

Quick Update about the Concert

Okay, just the short version for now:

~ Yes, Justin has definitely brought sexy back!

~ Justin dances and my heart skips a beat.

~ The concert itself was very entertaining, high energy, and worth every penny!

~ I got home last night at 2am and slept very late – 7am! I am a little tired and even cranky today, but again – it was worth it. I am very thankful to the Lord who got me home safely – there were many points in the drive that I cannot recall today!

~ Special thanks to Lauren who started this whole thing and Stephanie for making it happen – I will never be the same again! Seriously, I was in the same building as Justin!!!

~ No, Justin did NOT take his shirt off, although he DID lift it near the end of the show.

~ Special thanks to Lori for bringing in my favorite Starbucks coffee this morning, along with “Justin’s Favorite Fan” written on it! Kudos to Wanda for helping her remember my special mix!

~ Thanks to everyone who allowed me to recount the evening, especially Gina #1 who sometimes allows me to walk a bit on the naughty side (well, she only yells when I get REALLY naughty!)

Tonight, it’s homework and LOTS OF SLEEP!