Pastor protests in China…..um…..yeah……

Okay, I received an email from a friend telling me their former pastor (as in, they no longer go to his church) was protesting in China, during the Olympics, in favor of religious freedom. When I first heard, I was like, “wow, that’s pretty brave – China is a scary place regarding religious freedom!” Then, since my curiosity was peeked, I did a google search.

The following are excerpts from the CBS Denver affiliated site, as written by the Associated Press, and can be found here.

An American pastor checked into upscale hotels in the Olympics host city this week, filmed himself painting two of his rooms with slogans like “Beijing 2008 Our world Our nightmare” and then disappeared. Without paying. Eddie Romero’s unusual protest, now making the rounds on YouTube, shows foreigners can still sneak through the tight security measures China imposed to keep potential troublemakers away from the games. Romero’s friends said the preacher was in hiding, but planned to surrender to Chinese authorities as soon as the Olympics end Aug. 24. They said he began thinking about his elaborate, one-man protest of China’s human-rights abuses when Beijing was selected as the host for the 2008 Olympics seven years ago.

On Tuesday, in a sometimes unsteady hand — he had to teach himself how to paint — the California-based pastor splashed the walls of his two hotel rooms with demands for the release of five Chinese activists. He slashed pillows and staged mock killings with stuffed people propped on the bed, red paint spattered like blood on the headboard.
Romero, who appears to be alone, tells the camera he doesn’t want to disrupt the games. He talks about religious freedom for groups that remain highly sensitive with the Chinese government — Tibetan Buddhists, Uighur Muslims, the Falun Gong spiritual movement. The protest is heartfelt, said Bob Fu, leader of the Texas-based China Aid Association who is among a group of Romero supporters monitoring the protest from California. “This is not like middle-age crisis, craziness,” Fu said. “He’s very genuine, a caring, loving pastor. And very creative.” Another friend, British-based pastor Tony Thomas, said Romero had no special connection to China, but he had a vision for the project in 2001 after watching Beijing win the right to host the games. Thomas said Romero hatched the protest plan — which he eventually named “The Gadfly Project” — after consulting with a few close friends at his Hacienda Christian Fellowship church and talking with American activists who campaign for Chinese rights.

Okay, I am ALL FOR freedom of speech, human rights, freedom of religion, and would be the first to admit China has some things they could learn. I am not alone. And I praise the strength and bravery for people who stand in the face of oppression such as those that exist in China – and other countries – today. I applaud them. Protests have their place, can be affective……..

But VANDALISM? Destruction of hotel rooms, without paying? Getting the message on YouTube, where I imagine the majority of those in China would not even SEE it, let alone be able to do something about it? And, as a Christian Pastor, who admittedly does not appear to be trying to spread his faith, I think it further damages international views of Americans AND Christians! I think protests should be brave and RESPECTFUL – think of that student that stood in front of the tank……..his message still pops up today! But DISRESPECTING things……hmmmmm, not so sure…..

Am I off here? I would love to hear your opinions because, admittedly, I am reacting here……

Gina OUT

Gina the Sap

Okay, I started out the morning innocently enough – got my coffee, chatted with my friend online (shout out to Teddi!) and signed onto MySpace. I noticed that my sister posted a YouTube video about Christian the Lion, and I was intrigued. So I decided to check it out……

Well, this is an old story – having taken place in 1969 and 70 – and you may have already heard about it. I mean, over 2.4 million people had seen the YouTube clip in question! However, I had not. So I started watching it, and before you know it, was sobbing like a baby! A happy, sappy, sentimental cry! I don’t want to say more so as not to ruin it for you, but check it out! And yes, I cry every freaking time I watch it!

Click here to see the video!

Deep Thoughts from a Nerd

Okay, so maybe I didn’t get enough sleep last night…..it was hot, I tossed and turned…..and the alarm went off WAY too early this morning! But Ken and I will be leaving shortly for some fun surfing so things will be okay (and least, after I sip the coffee I just brought to the table!)

There has been an “issue” that has been bothering as of late. Well, probably for months, but it’s been gnawing at me more readily lately. Not sure why, but it has. Sometimes the thing called “religion” sucks! I mean, don’t get me wrong…..I have an intimate and real relationship with Jesus – without him I do not think I would have survived the crap that has been the last several months of my life. I am NOT talking about faith, God, or those sorts of things. I am talking about the dogma, the organized structures that are used to condemn, persecute, destroy…..and the worst part for me, in the name of my Lord.

I believe we need parameters to live by, standards to measure against, and the intelligence to know that we will surely miss the mark over and over again but are saved by Grace. Yet, I have witnessed a personal exodus from my life that is directly tied to RELIGION. Some have not been malicious, and perhaps just tied to the fact that the people involved don’t see me everyday like they used to. But harder for me to move past is the way that my employer used RELIGION to treat me like a second class citizen, outright harassing me, putting me through a five hour interrogation without lunch breaks or food, being treated “guilty until I (emphasis on me) prove my innocence”, and such. Why am I bringing this up now? Hmmmm. I see the pattern that my past employer implemented against me all over most organized religions – at that makes me very sad. But worse than that, I see the righteous justification to treating brothers or sisters in Christ like – excuse my French – holy crap. Often times, or at least in my case, after the same persecutors had treated me like a “rising star”. However, it seems that this treatment is not isolated, and that perhaps is why the wounds I feel haven’t had much time to heal.

I don’t know how to resolve this really. I guess I am hoping that, by writing out the words, this angst deep within me will be exorcised. Or the feeling of unfairness will diminish from my soul. Or, most likely, I just feel like a pity party today……..

On this note, here is an excerpt from John Shore’s blog (see link to the right) – it was a comment he received from a woman who struggled win unloving parents.  However, she moved into the treatment she received from Christians……tough words, however I believe many deal with this sort of thing often:

“I must say I do not like my parents. I am trying to return to God but I really need some Christians to show me that unconditional LOVE does exist. That it’s possible for someone not to judge you because you are different, unsocial or had a rotten life, and for them not to fear who I am might “rub off on them.”  I can’t say I have met many Christians of this kind. Mostly I hear from them how everyone outside of their little sect is going to Hell and wrong. In the four years I have been living in our town I have had ONE Christian person reach out to me unconditionally and lovingly. I was like a starving skeleton eating food for the first time in thirty years. I didn’t think Christians wanted anyone new around them or anyone so hurt they cannot seem to understand how deep it goes. I wonder if there really are Christian who care anymore. Not in my town I guess. Only one person at all, I guess.

I guess Christians have become too frightened to reach out to others in need. Somehow a sick wounded bleeding person is supposed to crawl to a church and beg for a little help. I wonder if Jesus would have slunk back and kept his mouth shut because others might punish him for sharing the gospel. I guess not because he died for us. I am trying to relate that to me.”

I will probably analyze this more later, but for now I must get ready to surf, dude! I will bring my camera today!

Gina OUT!

Body Blasts, Surfboards, and Dogs

My Thursday started out waking up at 4:45 am. Right, I thought the same thing! WHAT THE HECK?  But Sonya and I are back into the working out routine.  She has a membership at a women’s gym and graciously got me a free week to try it out.  We met there this morning at 5:30 for a Body Blast class……yep, you guessed it, every muscles was worked!  It was a great workout, but dang, MY BODY HAS BEEN BLASTED!  I came home and seriously sat for about an hour, too sore to even go take a shower!  But I have had more energy since then, thank God!

So, Kenny hasn’t been able to use his new surfboard, which arrived on Monday.  So we headed out later in the morning for his first run!  He was a little wobbly at first – this board is shorter than the one he took lessons on – but by the end of the day he was doing a GREAT job, turning, etc.  We had such a good time, bonding on the drive, sharing the moments on the beach even when he was far out (thumbs up and waving galore), and just sharing this new adventure together.  I adored the time together!  Sorry, no pics this time as bonehead Gina forgot her camera!

Well, we stayed at the beach a bit longer than I anticipated, so on the way home I was concerned about Gracie.  She is a WONDERFUL dog, but she has one small problem – when she is left alone, she gets destructive.  The first thing she broke was the flap to the doggie door.  Then, she ripped up the sliding glass screen.  Then, I locked her in her crate and she somehow got the hall rug and tore that up.  So I am very cautious when I leave her and put her in her crate AWAY from EVERYTHING.  But, at the same time, I don’t like to put her in the crate for more than an hour or two.  Today, that turned into about four hours and I felt horrible.  So I told Kenny, “As soon as we get home, please run upstairs and let Gracie out asap!”  He complied (he is good about that!) and rushed to the door leading into the house.  As he opened the door, there was Gracie!  WHAT?!?!!?  We checked the house out – no damage.  I called Rona, who had her cell phone off (RONA – WHAT IS THE DEAL WITH THAT!  LEAVE YOUR PHONE ON FOR PETE SAKE!), and so I left a message.  She called back later to inform me that she had NOT let Gracie out!  So that little stinker now knows how to open the freaking crate door!  Dun dun dun.  At least she was happy as a clam and didn’t cost her mommy more money to fix things!

Okay – Rona, Stephanie and I are leaving for Sacramento tomorrow to visit Sandy and Aaron!  We are SO excited!  Woohoo!  I hope to update you all on our exciting trip once I return as I don’t believe I will have access to the internet while there.

Have a great weekend!

A Lot about Nothing

Hello!  Um, I am up early today (7:30) as I have another interview this morning.  I have no idea if this one will work out.  I was offered a job yesterday that, long term, has potential.  However, it is 100% commission, I need to go to Calabasas EVERYDAY, and has no benefits.  So I need to pray about that one…….

ANYWAY, Edgar took the boys to a surfing contest this weekend and Kenny sent me the following pics that he took:

Yesterday, the foam surfboard I got Kenny arrived!  So today, since I have the interview, Edgar is taking him surfing.  I am so excited for him!  I will probably take him tomorrow.  I might even try it out!  Now THAT should be interesting!

Okay, I gotta run, need to get ready and all.  I am not used to getting dressed in “grown up clothes” anymore, so it takes some time!

Ciao.

Goodbye Sunday!

Wow, another weekend GONE!  Sorry the the redundant theme, but weekends don’t feel that special to me anymore!  LOL

I had some fun this weekend.  Yesterday I went shopping – for those who don’t know me, I HATE to shop!  But, alas, I have an interview tomorrow and really needed to look a bit more professional than I usually do.  Sigh.  To make up for this pain, I decided that I would also go to the Apple store.  I was THIS CLOSE to buying something I didn’t need, but decided that I wouldn’t…….whew!  It is like walking into a drug induced stupor for me!

ANYWAY, I did get a nice suit and cool shoes…..I will look pretty professional I think!  I am at a weird size right now, lost some inches so not quite in my size but not quite in the smaller size…….so anyway, that was encouraging.

One thing I DID take away from Apple is how to record my guitar and bass into my computer.  So, I made a trip to Best Buy, bought the adapter, and began composing music almost immediately!  It brought back memories of me and Edgar trying to record on a 4-track mixer years ago!  Recording on a computer is WAY easier!  LOL  I had SO MUCH fun and stayed up until 3am this morning!  DOH!  I woke up bright eyed at 9am and got right back to it!  So I finished two songs and I had SO MUCH FUN!

I also totally organized my desk and I feel pretty good about it.  Never did quite make it to straightening my room, but I DID clean the bathrooms (note to Rona!!!)

Okay, sorry for the lame post, I wanted to write something but I am distracted really.  Trying to come up with my next song!  LOL  It’s a process!  Maybe soon I will tell you how I do it, not sure if it’s the correct way or not!

Special shout out to Rona, who is my favorite nerd!

Gina OUT!

Happy Saturday

Well, as I have not worked in a while, the freedom of Saturday is not as big as it used to be!  In fact, half the time it takes me several seconds to figure out WHAT day it is!  Hopefully, God willing, I will find a job and get back into the swing of things!

Some site administration notes:  I added to pages here, which you can access to the right; these are MOVIE REVIEWS and WEEKLY SURVEY.  Not that you care about my movie reviews, and not that I do that often, but I decided I would add my spin on things.  I moved the survey over to the new page – I like these stupid things and will update it with a new survey each week.  That way, if you are not interested, you don’t have to see!

Today proves to be an “administration” day for me as well!  Chores, shopping, marking off the things I have listed as needing to be done all week.  Gracie and I will take a nice walk, bond, and otherwise that’s about it.  Aren’t you jealous?

Okay, I have things to do, I may write more later!

Gina OUT!

Whoa, lots going on!

First of all, special shout out to my dear cousin, Christine!  She is a few weeks older than I am, has always lived states away, yet we are more alike than I realized.  Thank you for always sending me encouraging comments or emails, and always being real with me.  I am so glad you are settling back down and getting online!  I’ve missed you!  And I love you!

The Getty was AWESOME and the day was beautiful!  Rona and I had a nice lunch looking at the clear blue sky, after having seen 90% of the museum!  I love that museum – next stop, Fargo where there are TWO museums!!!!  What’s also kind of cool is that Kirstie went to the Getty TODAY, totally unaware we had gone, and we compared notes!  Woohoo!  The three of us like many of the same things.

Tomorrow Kenny and I are going to the beach to take……SURFING LESSONS!  I am not entirely sure I will actually take them as it is a LONG day (8am – 2pm) and I am not sure how I will look in a wet suit, but Kenny for sure is taking lessons.  He has been waiting SO LONG for this day!  He was so excited tonight I had to insist he go to bed!  And, this old lady best be getting to bed soon too as we need to be at the beach by 7:30!

As for analysis, which I often do, I realized something today.  I tend to see the potential in everything – issues, people, ideas…..the list goes on.  And on the surface, this is a good quality to have.  But my problem, and perhaps yours as well, is when I manufacture potential that is not there, thus creating a hope that is really fruitless.  For example, I often manufacture “the best” in people because, well, I don’t want to acknowledge how their actions are hurtful to me.  I make excuses for them internally, not really saying, “wow, they are treating me like crap and that needs to stop!”  I guess I have taken the “turn the other cheek” theory a bit too far.  Or I tell myself, if I love someone a bit or am really kind to them, they will somehow see how cool that is and will start being nicer.  See how I transfered that?  It is MY fault they are not nice, because I haven’t done enough to “change” them!  Whoa there!  This analysis is getting DEEP!  Or maybe subconsciously I think that I somehow deserve to be treated badly, that to expect someone to be nice to me “just because” is a little off beat.  Hmmmm, I think I better stop writing because this is really getting personal…….

Another thing I realized – I give all I have to people, many people that don’t (or didn’t) deserve it.  Emotionally, physically, financially – I have sacrificed for many people who really don’t give a damn about me today, for myriad reasons.  And I wonder, WHY did I sacrifice so much for them?  To receive some sort of manufactured love?  To make myself feel valuable?  Maybe to make myself feel fulfilled?  All for nothing, it seems, because many of the people to whom I gave the most don’t even pretend to care about me today.  As my dear friend Teddi would ask now, “so, what have you learned from that?”  I am not sure.  I like the part of me that sees a need and tries to meet it.  But I guess my heart is telling me to reign it in a little or at least expect the recipient to treat me like crap.  And that makes me think, was there a string to my love?  Did I do it out of love or to make them feel obligated to me?  Hmmmm.  But I also think takers, just takers, the kind that then stab you in the back and act like you are horrible, suck.  Oh, now I am rambling!

This post is a direct result to me having a migraine today!  A BAD one.  So I guess it rumbled up my brain cells a bit!

I hope to take pics of Kenny surfing tomorrow and will post them!

Gina……OUT!

The Getty and other Ramblings

Today, I am going to The Getty Center in Los Angeles.  This is one of my FAVORITE places to go!  I LOVE the building (although, admittedly, I seem to get lost every time!), I love the gardens, and of course I love the ART!  I am partial to the Impressionists (Monet, Van Gogh, etc.), the traditional ones (well, can’t remember the name for them) (Rembrandt, etc.), and am excited to see the special exhibits out now.  I have met a few people who have expressed their disdain for museums – that those who go there are snobbish or something.  Or that museums are boring.  Well, to Kate in North Dakota who has never met me (and other readers who I haven’t called out to find out who you are) I am NOT a snob!  I am one of those cool anomalies that also happens to like art.  And my modesty is my best feature!  LOL  And, in my opinion, museums are NOT boring and I wish I had days to spend there to see everything.

The other day Rona and I went to see the movie WANTED with James McAvoy, Morgan Freeman, Angelina Jolie.  I have not really been a big Angelina fan – I think I chose Jennifer Anniston’s side when the whole divorce thing happened and, well, the Billy Bob years were weird.  However, seeing this picture made me realize that 1) she is freaking gorgeous and, 2) she is a pretty good actor!  And of course, James is freaking cute too and has a nice body for a little guy!

Okay, I must now get ready for The Getty!  Oh wow, that rhymes!

Gina says ADIOS!

Pinching Crabs

Today I was chatting with a friend online, who was not really pleased that I would be going to the beach while she had to work.  In this discussion, she said (jokingly, of course) that she hoped I met a crab and that the crab pinched me!  HOW RUDE!  LOL

So the boys and I went to the beach and met Steph and the kids.  I was excited – not a cloud in the sky!  But when we got to the beach, we instantly realized the wind was really whipping!  Stephanie had TONS of goose bumps all over her body as the wind was pretty cold.  I wasn’t too cold and quickly started boogie boarding with Kenny, who was already pretty far out.  Some of the waves were actually pretty good, thanks to said wind, but I didn’t stay out long because the water was rough and I somehow bruised my right arm pretty badly on the board.  The wind then REALLY got my attention – it WAS cold!  I am not sure how long we sat there like that, but it was miserable.  Sand was blowing everywhere (eyes, mouths, etc.) and we couldn’t feel the sun even with no clouds in the sky.  So, it was a short day, but we have plans to go back and try it out again on Thursday.

Do you think the wind was a form of crab?????  LOL

Word of the day:

Denial – a psychological defense mechanism in which confrontation with a personal problem or with reality is avoided by denying the existence of the problem or reality.

I have lived in denial before, probably many times.  However, I have also observed it in others.  It’s sad, but funny, to see when people are so deep in their denial that – even when you apologize for a huge mistake or the way you reacted to a situation – they deny their part in it and even continue to accuse you and attack you over and over again – even when said accusations won’t change the fact that you are done with the person.  And, I have found that denial has a way of morphing.  For example, when someone in denial is hurt, they sometimes say something like, “I just wish you would explain” and then, when you DO explain, they find something else to complain about.  Ironically, the complaint is still the same complaint, but now the person in denial has more ammunition to use against you.  I recommend, if you find yourself in this sort of situation, do NOT be pulled into the pattern of denial any further, unless you are a licensed psychologist who is equipped at dealing with it properly.

Special shout out to my Dad, who is the coolest person on earth.  (Yes, I know, that means I am the SECOND coolest person…….)

Gina OUT!