Recap of Weekend? Not Sure Yet…..

I am still trying to get “back into the swing of things” here, so I am not completely motivated.  Wow, at least THIS time I have an excuse for feeling this way!  LOL

This weekend was a whirlwind of activity as my sister, Linda, and my nephew/her son Matthew was here visiting from Colorado.  We were able to visit Eddie (with whom we all got tattoos – see pics posted prior to this), spent a nice time with Mom, visited Uncle Kenny and Aunt Charlene, and also Uncle Ed and Uncle Lou.  What is harder to share in a meaningful way is that these people are spread out all over California (Fullerton, Rialto, Wildomar, a stop in Lake Forest, back to Fullerton, home to Valencia, and Rancho Palos Verdes).  It was fun though!

I want to add that I am VERY HAPPY with my dog, Gracie today!  She went potty outside like a good girl this morning!  Ah, the little things!

Well, the unmotivated piece of me is taking over……so I guess I will stop here.  Sorry that I missed a few song days.  Right…..I know it was devastating to most of you…….

Oh, one more thing.  I realized I need to start living in the moment, not the past.  Yesterday may have been cool or it may have sucked.  Last year  may have brought much happiness or threw me in the depths of despair.  I don’t need to FORGET about that.  But I need to stop “living” in those moments – either wishing for them or living with regret for mistakes I made.  My life today is pretty darn good and, no matter what today brings me (the good, the bad, the ugly) I need to experience it and honor it TODAY.  So, I think today is a great day to start focusing on the people and activities in my life that are here TODAY instead of thinking about the people and activities that were in my past.  I used to form my life around what I was told was “my destiny”, but from now on I am making my own.  Make sense?  Although, I don’t promise I won’t reminisce!  🙂

Gina OUT!

Thursday Ramblings…..

So today I walked into the office to hear a sermon broadcasting from Charles’ computer.  Yes, Charles is a Christian and I have to admit, he’s really on fire.  He has a great heart and yearns to know more of God, and at times I feel as though God placed Charles here to bless me. 

However, the sermon being played kind of pissed me off.  (Yes, I can say that all in one sentence!)  First of all, I have to be candid in that I have NEVER liked preachers who scream at the top of their lungs.  Never.  So I already was biased against him just by hearing his yelling voice.  But moreso was his message – you really can’t know you are truly saved unless you prove it with things such as going to church, avoiding worldly things of all kinds, etc.  He went onto say that you “better be scared” because you could lose your salvation at any moment if you don’t watch out. 

I must add that, usually when Charles has these sort of preachers on, I just pray that the Holy Spirit reveal himself to both of us and that there might be a balance to His love and also to our role as ambassadors for Him to the world.  However, LOSE YOUR SALVATION?????  I cannot STAND this sort of crap!  How can I have more power than Jesus Christ Himself when I had nothing to do with my salvation in the first place????

So, just hold up a second, please.  I am NOT saying we as Christians should be willy nilly and do anything because we have this “sure fire” thing called salvation.  When we accept Christ, we ARE changed and the Holy Spirit indwells us and makes us a new creation.  And we SHOULD be new, should seek to be more like Jesus everyday, and become sactified by the Holy Spirit.  But, let’s face it, we still suck apart from Christ and we are so gonna fail in many, many ways.  I tried to articulate these thoughts to Charles, but he told me that we are slaves to Christ and therefore should not sin.  I said it was impossible.  He said I might need to get right with God (not directly and not mean spirited……)

So I instead wrote this email:

I agree with the CONCEPTS of the pastor speaking today, but I think there is too much emphasis on the outward.  The Pharisees in Jesus’ days knew the law, did many of the outward things required by the law (and like us, tons of things we as humans have added to the law), yet Jesus was clear that their arrogance and sick hearts were wrong and kept them from knowing God. 

 

For example, his words “you are known by your fruit” and should not “be of the world”.  I have heard some claim that if I, as a woman, wear pants, I am of the world and beyond salvation.  I have heard that if I drink beer, I am of the world and cannot be a Christian.  (keep in mind, the Bible says “be ye not DRUNK”).  I have heard that, if I listen to secular music, I am not saved.  All of these are outward signs and have nothing to do with the heart or even Jesus Christ.  However, many Christians who go to church and tithe and cut their hair a certain way (aka, “like the Pharisees), treat a homeless person like crap and turn their backs on “sinners” in the world and justify those actions by saying “we are not of the world”.  But when the scriptures tell us to follow the law – which I am not even saying we shouldn’t – I believe Jesus set the heirchy for this following.  Matt 22:34-40 NIV (emphasis mine) says:

The Greatest Commandment

 34Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the Pharisees got together. 35One of them, an expert in the law, tested him with this question:

 36“Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” 37Jesus replied: ” ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’[b] 38This is the first and greatest commandment. 39And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[c] 40All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

So, the way I see it, if we do not love our God and our neighbors, no other adherence to the law matters, as everything hangs on these two things.  And who is our neighbor?  They are the ones that society tells us to hate (Samaritans), they and the sinners (aka the adulterer who was not stoned), they are the world.  And, by Jesus’ own actions (as he did everything the Pharisees thought was “of the world”), we need to love and reach out to all people no matter what their circumstances and LOVE THEM EVEN IF THEY DO NOT ACCEPT HIM!

 

And again, focusing too much on the outward “fruits” (that really can be defined in world ways, don’t you think?  Going to church, looking a certain way, speaking a certain way – cliques do that too!) is dangerous.  Jesus himself shared in Luke 18:9-14:

The Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector

 9To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everybody else, Jesus told this parable: 10“Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11The Pharisee stood up and prayed about[a] himself: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. 12I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’

 13“But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’

 14“I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”

So, I am NOT saying we should not put on the garments God provided through His Son at the point of our salvation – I am not saying there should not be a change in us when we accept Him as Savior.  But I also do not want to take other scriptures that promote fear or make me feel as though I need to put on the garments of man to “prove” my salvation.  I rely on the Holy Spirit on a daily basis to fight the flesh that is still present in my life (just as Paul shared in Corinthians).  I hope and TRUST that I am being sanctified each day by the Holy Spirit and that HIS LOVE is manifested in me and that I truly follow His greatest commandments – to love Him and love others – before I get all arrogant to measure my other fruits in a greater way.  And I am will based my faith in the Bible that says I am saved because I accepted Jesus Christ, and I will not worry about “losing” my salvation or question that salvation because I may not adhere to one or another “rule”.  No matter how great I am with the “clothes” or outward signs, I am really and truly like that tax collector – I so suck and I am 100% a sinner and really, I do not deserve a damn thing.  And even if I get some sense of “godliness” with my “walk” or my “talk” or my church attendance or anything else that I can do to separate myself from the world, I still suck except for the blood of Jesus that has given me something I do not deserve.

 

So THAT is what I was trying to say.  And there is no scripture that says what we need to “listen to” specifically…….because just as I sent this email, the preacher dude said if you listen to secular music, you just might not be saved……and used the scripture “you called ‘Lord Lord’ but I did not know you” as proof…….sigh.

 

And maybe the next conversation we can have is – can a secular job be your ministry?  J

I am posting this mostly because I would love to hear your thoughts about this.  Am I wrong?  Should we focus more on things like music, clothes, church attendance, and less on loving others or maybe working on our hearts? 

And on a side note, I have words of advice for business owners.  If you do not pay withholding taxes to the IRS and State you’re located in, they can and WILL take all of your money out of your bank accounts and will not care if you just sent our payroll checks or your opinion that “you can’t stop our operations like that”.

Pics and Other Boring Items

So I’ve gone back to uploading my pics to my Mac Site – it’s just so much easier than uploading here or trying to make Facebook work!  So my decision gives you the opportunity to laugh at my face more often!

To check out ALL of the pics from day 1 of my kidnap weekend spent at Bolsa Chica Beach, click here.

To check out all the pics from day 2 of my kidnap weekend spent and Disneyland, click here.

So yeah, got a little sunburnt on Saturday due, in large part, to my apparent inability to apply sunscreen in an even and appropriate manner!  I have GREAT coverage in some areas of my body, and I suck in the other areas!  Primarily are my arms and the part of my legs that bend.  OUCH!  It doesn’t help that there is a HUGE heat wave going on here, I work in the Valley, and the air doesn’t work in my office!  Today I might even wear flip flops and shorts to work!  (It was over 100 degrees in my office yesterday!)  (Oh, poor poor Gina!)

So, if you look at the Disneyland pics, I need to share a story.  Last time I went, Jenny Jen Jen KICKED MY BUTT on the Toy Story Ride.  It was embarrassing!  So this time, I made a wager with her and D, with the winner getting two home cooked meals (one from each of the losers).  It was a risk for me to do that, of course, because of my horrible loss last time.  But, if you know me, you know a good challenge brings out the best in me.  I was INTENSE in there (as a couple of the pics show) and after each session of shooting would call out my score and D and Jen would yell theirs back.  It was like a sea saw – I was up, Jen was up, etc.  BRING IT!  So I was so freaking focused and ended up winning the challenge!  NOT by as much as Jen killed me last time, but that is not important when food is in the mix!  LOL

Disclaimer – D would add that she was taking pics so of course she didn’t win.  But I would like to add, she knew the wager was on so that was her choice!

Okay, I must go get ready for work.  I could add lots of negative comments here, but found that doing so does not change that things suck.  So I will not…..

Have a great day peeps!

Gina OUT!

Monday Heartbreak Song – Last Cigarette

By Bon Jovi.  Too bad my friend who is a huge Bon Jovi fan doesn’t come here – the only good youtube I could find is actually a video from a concert and shows LOTS of Jon!  LOL  I’m more of a Richie Sambora girl myself……

Anyway, this song is SO true!

Regrets are all you left on your lipstick stains
Take a picture of our past there in that ashtray
We had our fun, I used to light your flame
Like the dancing smoke that rose we tried to find our way
No one told me, she told me

Your love’s like one last cigarette
Last cigarette, I will savor it
The last cigarette
Take it in and hold your breath, hope it never ends
But when it’s gone, it’s gone
The last cigarette

Just to breathe reminds me of what used to be
The smoke’s the ghost that keeps you close when I can’t sleep
Don’t ask the past to last; it’s about to change
The memories don’t answer when I call your name

Your love’s like one last cigarette
Last cigarette, I will savor it
The last cigarette
Take it in and hold your breath, hope it never ends
But when it’s gone, it’s gone
One last cigarette, last cigarette
One I can’t forget, the last cigarette
Right there at my fingertips, I got your taste still on my lips
Right or wrong
You’re still gone, gone, gone

No one told me, she told me
You always lose the girl in a Brian Wilson world

One Last cigarette, I will savor it
Take it in and hold your breath, hope it never ends
But when it’s gone, it’s gone
One last cigarette, last cigarette
i will savor it the last cigarette
take it in and hold ya breath
hope it never ends
but when its gone its gone
The last cigarette, last cigarette
One I can’t forget, the last cigarette
Right there at my fingertips, I got your taste still on my lips
Right or wrong
No one told me, she told me

Evidence that Life Can Be Good

Well, I have eluded to the fact that, well, life has sucked on and off lately.  But I have incredible friends and family who love me enough to “kidnap” me and force me to relax and rewind!

Day 1 of the Kidnap Weekend – Bolsa Chica State Beach!

Me and Jen, Super Lifeguards!

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Surfs UP!

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Here is the ladybug I saved from drowning. I was very touched by that.

Until I realized there were about 5,000 ladybugs on the beach and many of them “accidentally died” after they played with the kids.

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Jen and Josh
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Me, Jen, and Josh

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Josh and Soph at sunset

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Me and Zack

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Okay, so apparently you can’t drink alcohol on state beaches.

And I KNEW my beers were sitting in the cooler all day, missing me. So what that I took one into the bathroom when I showered!

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I will try to post the Disneyland pics from Kidnap Day 2!

Gina OUT!

Fun Song – Beautiful Dirty Rich

I like this song – you can try to figure out WHY! Seriously, leave comments and the winner will get something fantastic……like a shout out from cool Gina! 🙂

Beautiful, dirty dirty rich rich dirty dirty
Beautiful dirty rich
Dirty dirty rich dirty dirty rich beautiful
Beautiful and dirty dirty rich rich dirty

We got a redlight
Pornographic dance fight
Systematic, honey
But we go no money

Our hair is perfect
While were all getting shit wrecked
It’s automatic, honey
But we got no money

Daddy I’m so sorry, I’m so s-s-sorry yeah
We just like to party, like to p-p-party yeah

Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich
Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich

We live a cute life
Soundfematic, pants tigh-ter than plastic, honey
But we got no money

We do the dance right
We got it made like
Ice cream topped with honey
But we got no money

Daddy I’m so sorry, I’m so s-s-sorry yeah
We just like to party, like to p-p-party yeah

Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich
Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich

A bang bang bang, bang bang bang, beautiful, dirty rich
A bang bang bang, bang bang bang, beautiful, dirty rich

Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich
Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich

Bang bang

Friday Love Song (late!) – Almost Paradise

I think this was the theme song to my senior prom….or maybe junior prom…….and actually I was like “oh my gosh, I didn’t post my Friday song!  What should I do?>????”  I asked some friends, and this was the first nominated song.  And, against my “rules”, I do NOT have this one on my iPod.  But I am sure you will forgive me.  And for some reason I want to see the movie Footloose……

I thought that dreams belonged to other men
‘Cuz each time I got close
They’d fall apart again

I feared my heart would beat in secrecy
I faced the nights alone
Oh, how could I have known
That all my life I only needed you

Chorus
Whoa-oa
ALMOST PARADISE
We’re knocking on heaven’s door
ALMOST PARADISE
How could we ask for more?
I swear that I can see forever in your eyes
Paradise

It seems like perfect love’s so hard to find
I’d almost given up
You must’ve read my mind
And all these dreams I saved for a rainy day
They’re finally comin’ true
I’ll share them all with you
‘Now we hold the future in our hands

Chorus

And in your arms salvation’s not so far away
We’re getting closer, coser every day

Chorus

Yada Yada Yada and Real Pics of Easter

The subject line is in response to Martin, who used that phrase in an email to me (which, he pointed out, was NOT blank! I am not as lame as I thought!) Yes Martin, I am writing more now on the blog……it’s amazing what I can accomplish when I don’t have never-ending homework!

So, I am realizing that I am losing my Orange County “style”. Well, not that I HAVE much style, but when I lived in the valley, I still considered myself an OC Girl. But now that I am in the Santa Clarity Valley, I am allowing myself to feel like a valley girl…….and I recall my years in the OC (OMG, I said “the OC”…..more proof that what I am sharing is true!) are becoming a fond memory. Other than my daughter, who attends Cal State Fullerton, and Disneyland (where my love Goofy lives), I am not sure I would GO to the OC! Okay wait, there are myriad other reasons why I would go there……Mission Presbyterian Church, my other friends there, etc. So chill people! I am MAKING A POINT! lol

So anyway, I like my new digs. I stopped by Borders on the way home, which is close to my house, and it was SO NICE! My neighborhood is quiet and clean. I don’t have to drive that far to work. It feels so nice here. And that rocks.

I have heard from a couple peeps the link to the pics don’t work. Sorry about that. So I am uploading here until I remember my password to snapfish!

The better side for Kenny, Me, and Josh

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Kenny about to take a shot……

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Josh and Gracie being dramatic after receiving a shot

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Me and My Boys – Yes, I got dolled up!

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Wednesday Metal Song – Two Minutes to Midnight

By one of my favorite bands of all time – Iron Maiden!  Special shout of to Martin, who does NOT like them LO (you know you wanna listen, you know it!).  I love the bass line in this song……and of the drums of course!

Lyrics

Kill for gain or shoot to maim
But we dont need a reason
The golden goose is on the loose
And never out of season
Some blackened pride still burns inside
This shell of bloody treason
Heres my gun for a barrel of fun
For the love of living death.

Chorus
The killers breed or the demons seed,
The glamour, the fortune, the pain,
Go to war again, blood is freedoms stain,
But don’t you pray for my soul anymore.
2 minutes to midnight
The hands that threaten doom.
2 minutes to midnight
To kill the unborn in the womb.

The blind men shout let the creatures out
Well show the unbelievers
The napalm screams of human flames
Of a prime time belsen feast…yeah!
As the reasons for the carnage cut their meat and lick the gravy,
We oil the jaws of the war machine and feed it with our babies.

Chorus

The body bags and little rags of children torn in two
And the jellied brains of those who remain to put the finger right on you.
As the madmen play on words and make us all dance to their song,
To the tune of starving millions to make a better kind of gun.

Chorus

Midnight…all night…