by Faith Hill.  To have the need for this song really, really rocks.

If I could grant
You one wish
I’d wish you could see the way you kiss
Ooh, I love watching you
Baby
When you’re driving me crazy

Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There’s nowhere else I’d rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me
The way you love

It’s not right
It’s not fair
What you’re missing over there
Someday I’ll find a way to show you
Just how lucky I am to know you

Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There’s nowhere else I’d rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me
The way you love me

You’re the million reasons why
There’s love reflecting in my eyes

Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There’s nowhere else I’d rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me
The way you love me
The way you love me

Ooh, the way you love me
The way you love me

By Breaking Benjamin.  It has one bad word, so parental discretion is advised.

I haven’t taken it for months, really, but today was different.  I have had a MAJOR headache all day and NOTHING even came close to touching it.  Maybe it was the stress at work or this allergy thing or just being old…..but this headache was kicking my butt!  It was not a migraine – no light or noise issues and the pain was different.  But the pain was definitely intense.  You get the picture.

But, miraculously, Holy Vicodin has done a wonderful job kicking the crap out of this headache!  And I have a bit of a buzz to go with it, too!  If that’s not holy, I don’t know what IS!

However, I must admit that TYPING this dang blog is a bit more troublesome than usual.  Huh.  Holy Vicodin and all that.  I am thinking I might be embarrassed of this post in the morning.  And not even one drop of wine!  Oh, but I don’t really miss the wine…….brings back bad memories many times, as does American Idol and Dancing With the Stars.  Long story there, but alas…..truth be known they were not all bad memories.  Perhaps I am still processing other things that have mixed into the memory and all that.  Ramblings in their finest.  Don’t imagine that made any sort of sense at all.  Dare I blame HV?

So, thank you Holy Vicodin, for providing a reprieve from the pain that has haunted my day!  Now, gotta run as this concentrating-on-my-typing is getting too tough!

Gina, the user of the Holy Vicodin, OUT!

…..so yes, I haven’t been feeling well and that is part of the reason why this blog has been so boring.  “Wow,” you say with shock, “now she’s coming up with excuses why this blog is always so boring????”  Yes, yes I am.

So let the boring-ness begin!

Work – we made it through last week (thanks to those that prayed) but – as the saying goes – we won the battle but the war is not over.  Lots still going on and I am fighting the urge to say “hey, you made this mess now deal with it” to the powers that be.  Instead, I plug along, do the best I can, and hope I will get paid for my effort.

Kids – the countdown to the end of school has begun.  Kenny is getting back into his surfing mode (a little more of a drive now that we’re in the Santa Clarita Vally, but that’s okay) and Josh is ready to write more songs.  Kirstie is finishing up her first year of college and I believe she did well, although like her mother probably would have reacted, is frustrated that she didn’t get a 4.0.  I am looking forward to lots of outdoor fun with them.

May – this is a busy month for sure!  Lots of birthday’s!  In fact, Kenny’s 14th birthday is on Mother’s Day this year!  We have worked out Sunday, so don’t worry.  🙂  This weekend will be very busy with family festivities and next weekend will be his “birthday with friends” celebration.  I think Edgar and I are going to Magic Mountain with them, which should be fun since Edgar HATES rollercoasters and I love them!

Me – as mentioned earlier, I am not feeling well.  I think it’s the psycho-schematic flu based on all the exposure to the swine flu on tv.  But seriously, I am dealing with something I am allergic to; I itch from head to toe, inside and out!  Yesterday I could barely move and my face was a site!  But today I feel a bit more human.  Which is good because my boss was obviously stressed that I worked from home yesterday…….

And since I missed Monday’s Song, here is a throw out – Evanescence, Everybody’s Fool:

Gina OUT!

Ok, I was reminded I should add that I wrote this dumb song, played all the instruments, and am the person doing the horrible vocals.  So there.

by Gretchen Wilson (featuring Kid Rock).  Are they talking about me?

Sorry, couldn’t find the lyrics online and too tired to type them out…..

I feel the need to post something here, although I am not sure what……this is a huge dilemma! I mean, what if another blog bot finds this blog and hundreds of peeps read this post, and it is totally lame???? THE PRESSURE!

Sometimes I wish my life could be as simple as Gracie’s. I mean, she gets to sit on the back of my comfy chair as I type this blog, she gets extremely excited just to be able to go outside to go potty, and a small treat makes her day. Me, well, I don’t jump all over the room when I get up to go potty…..it just doesn’t seem fair, does it?

I also wish there was an easy way to convince some people that everything is not about them. For example, if I am in a bad mood because of work, it does NOT mean that a specific, unrelated person somehow offended me and that I no longer want to be their friend or whatever it might be that their brain manufactures. So, if you’re reading this an somehow feel angst that I have these angry feeling towards you or anything like that, please be kind and rewind.

And specifically to “you know who you are” – the only frustration I felt with you was specifically to your actions YESTERDAY, as I specifically noted in my phone call to you. Nothing prior to that or after that has entered my mind and had nothing to do with you. I request that you move forward with the plan and the real person involved and leave me out of it. Unless, of course, you do NOT agree with the voice message I left, in which case feel free to contact me directly and not anyone else. I can and do listen to words that express that I was out of line, and if this was the case tell me. I will probably even apologize……I am ready and willing to move on and let you be, and even discuss YESTERDAY if needed – but I really should never have been part of the plan at all as it has nothing to do with me……

On that note, for my readers who pray, I would appreciate a few coming my way in the next day or two. The days will be directly related to how well the company I work for survives a couple huge hurdles. Also, that the decision makers make better ones so that – if we survive – the issues at hand do not arise again. Thanks.

I am planning to meet Eddie again on Saturday; he is getting another tattoo or maybe two…..he asked if he could get the same cross tattoo I got on his leg. Of course, I told him yes! Isn’t that cool? Truth be known, I got a little teary eyed when he asked. He and I have this hard-to-describe bond, we always have. He is such an amazing brother and I love him so much. So anyway, I am looking forward to that! And I will have to fight the urge not to get another one myself! 🙂

Okay, well, that’s all I got. I apologize for the lame post!
Gina OUT!

Disclaimer:  This is a general post.  It is not related to any specific person, situation, or circumstance that is new or something that I have not shared elsewhere here.  If, by some remote chance, this post offends you, please email me, comment me, or otherwise contact me so that I can assure you that you are not involved.

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Too often we are conditioned to act or think a certain way.  It may start with our parents, it may start in our churches, maybe even at school.  Many of the conditions are important – how to act when eating dinner, what is appropriate to say to others, how to act in stores versus playgrounds, etc.  You get the idea.

But sometimes we are conditioned to take on behaviors from others that are not good…..and are afraid to call them on it because, by doing so, they might be offended.  And that IS a hard thing to balance; what if I am wrong?  What if they are right?  What if they get all pissed at you for calling them on it?

But what if you ARE right?  What if the last days or weeks, too many things have occurred that point to the fact that “something is fishy”?  Is it wrong to say, in kindness of course, “hey, what’s the deal?”  Why is it so wrong to air your feelings in a loving manner and at least get your concerns out in the open?  Why is it wrong to give the other person the opportunity to either refute there is a problem or admit that, indeed, something was remiss?  Maybe even give some sort of tangible “proof” that things are not, in fact, “fishy”.  Yet, I maintain that often we are conditioned to keep it all inside and the cycle continues over and over again.

To sum up this post of really nothing meaningful, I am tired of the damn cycle and just want the ride to end……..and yet, as an observer in the matter, I fear it will continue indefinitely…….

Wow, that sounds cryptic!  And I love that.

Gina OUT!