Sunday Song – Hallelujah (Your Love is Amazing)

By Phillips, Craig and Dean.  Love this song and loved it on the drums too.  😛

Your love is amazing

Steady and unchanging

Your love is a mountain

Firm beneath my feet

Your love is a mystery

How You gently life me

When I am surrounded

Your love carries me

Your love is surprising

I can feel it rising

All the joy that’s growing

Deep inside of me

And every time I see you

All your goodness shines through

And I can feel this God song rising up in me

CHORUS

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah

Your love makes me sing

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah

Your love makes me sing

Your love is surprising

I can feel it rising

All the joy that’s growing

Deep inside of me

And every time I see you

All your goodness shines through

And I can feel this God song rising up in me

Fun Song – Beautiful Dirty Rich

I like this song – you can try to figure out WHY! Seriously, leave comments and the winner will get something fantastic……like a shout out from cool Gina! 🙂

Beautiful, dirty dirty rich rich dirty dirty
Beautiful dirty rich
Dirty dirty rich dirty dirty rich beautiful
Beautiful and dirty dirty rich rich dirty

We got a redlight
Pornographic dance fight
Systematic, honey
But we go no money

Our hair is perfect
While were all getting shit wrecked
It’s automatic, honey
But we got no money

Daddy I’m so sorry, I’m so s-s-sorry yeah
We just like to party, like to p-p-party yeah

Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich
Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich

We live a cute life
Soundfematic, pants tigh-ter than plastic, honey
But we got no money

We do the dance right
We got it made like
Ice cream topped with honey
But we got no money

Daddy I’m so sorry, I’m so s-s-sorry yeah
We just like to party, like to p-p-party yeah

Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich
Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich

A bang bang bang, bang bang bang, beautiful, dirty rich
A bang bang bang, bang bang bang, beautiful, dirty rich

Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich
Bang bang, we’re beautiful and dirty rich

Bang bang

Friday Love Song (late!) – Almost Paradise

I think this was the theme song to my senior prom….or maybe junior prom…….and actually I was like “oh my gosh, I didn’t post my Friday song!  What should I do?>????”  I asked some friends, and this was the first nominated song.  And, against my “rules”, I do NOT have this one on my iPod.  But I am sure you will forgive me.  And for some reason I want to see the movie Footloose……

I thought that dreams belonged to other men
‘Cuz each time I got close
They’d fall apart again

I feared my heart would beat in secrecy
I faced the nights alone
Oh, how could I have known
That all my life I only needed you

Chorus
Whoa-oa
ALMOST PARADISE
We’re knocking on heaven’s door
ALMOST PARADISE
How could we ask for more?
I swear that I can see forever in your eyes
Paradise

It seems like perfect love’s so hard to find
I’d almost given up
You must’ve read my mind
And all these dreams I saved for a rainy day
They’re finally comin’ true
I’ll share them all with you
‘Now we hold the future in our hands

Chorus

And in your arms salvation’s not so far away
We’re getting closer, coser every day

Chorus

Yada Yada Yada and Real Pics of Easter

The subject line is in response to Martin, who used that phrase in an email to me (which, he pointed out, was NOT blank! I am not as lame as I thought!) Yes Martin, I am writing more now on the blog……it’s amazing what I can accomplish when I don’t have never-ending homework!

So, I am realizing that I am losing my Orange County “style”. Well, not that I HAVE much style, but when I lived in the valley, I still considered myself an OC Girl. But now that I am in the Santa Clarity Valley, I am allowing myself to feel like a valley girl…….and I recall my years in the OC (OMG, I said “the OC”…..more proof that what I am sharing is true!) are becoming a fond memory. Other than my daughter, who attends Cal State Fullerton, and Disneyland (where my love Goofy lives), I am not sure I would GO to the OC! Okay wait, there are myriad other reasons why I would go there……Mission Presbyterian Church, my other friends there, etc. So chill people! I am MAKING A POINT! lol

So anyway, I like my new digs. I stopped by Borders on the way home, which is close to my house, and it was SO NICE! My neighborhood is quiet and clean. I don’t have to drive that far to work. It feels so nice here. And that rocks.

I have heard from a couple peeps the link to the pics don’t work. Sorry about that. So I am uploading here until I remember my password to snapfish!

The better side for Kenny, Me, and Josh

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Kenny about to take a shot……

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Josh and Gracie being dramatic after receiving a shot

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Me and My Boys – Yes, I got dolled up!

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Wednesday Metal Song – Two Minutes to Midnight

By one of my favorite bands of all time – Iron Maiden!  Special shout of to Martin, who does NOT like them LO (you know you wanna listen, you know it!).  I love the bass line in this song……and of the drums of course!

Lyrics

Kill for gain or shoot to maim
But we dont need a reason
The golden goose is on the loose
And never out of season
Some blackened pride still burns inside
This shell of bloody treason
Heres my gun for a barrel of fun
For the love of living death.

Chorus
The killers breed or the demons seed,
The glamour, the fortune, the pain,
Go to war again, blood is freedoms stain,
But don’t you pray for my soul anymore.
2 minutes to midnight
The hands that threaten doom.
2 minutes to midnight
To kill the unborn in the womb.

The blind men shout let the creatures out
Well show the unbelievers
The napalm screams of human flames
Of a prime time belsen feast…yeah!
As the reasons for the carnage cut their meat and lick the gravy,
We oil the jaws of the war machine and feed it with our babies.

Chorus

The body bags and little rags of children torn in two
And the jellied brains of those who remain to put the finger right on you.
As the madmen play on words and make us all dance to their song,
To the tune of starving millions to make a better kind of gun.

Chorus

Midnight…all night…

Try not to ask why…..

Disclaimer:  This post totally lives up to the “Just Rambling” name, with no subject, no thesis, no nothing……..

Why can’t seeing people suffer with untreatable diseases be easier to handle?  I don’t know, that made me realize how I struggle to take control of things.  I want to fix this or deal with that.  I want to move and shake and make things happen.  And sometimes, well, I can’t!  And that – excuse my French – pisses me off.  But, at the same time, I cringe when well meaning individuals shake their hands at God for not healing someone or for not stopping a tragedy from happening.  I mean, most would say they wouldn’t want God controlling their lives day-to-day…..like telling them how to speak or how fast to drive or what to wear or whether or not to drink or dance or whatever.  But often, when something BAD happens, He’s the first to be blamed!

I say, sheesh, free will goes both ways people!  And God never promised us a non-tough life.

Anyway, I totally have control issues.  I want to be all things to all people…..well, maybe all things to some people.  And I can’t.  And I want to make everyone happy or comfortable or relaxed.  Sometimes I succeed, but often I fail.  Or I become “the Gina of the moment”, which really means I am trying to be what I THINK they want me to be.  I am better at not doing that, but sheesh.  Hard work.

So tonight I am trying not to control things.  Have been trying to write lyrics to a song I wrote last December over Christmas called “Butterflies”.  It’s a little difficult….partly because that moment is gone, partly because I am just not in the mood to write lyrics.  Usually I write lyrics, then the music.  Sometimes, like with my song Wasted, I wrote the music first.  Not that ANY of my songs are worthy of much more than giving me something to do, but I DO enjoy it very much!  I guess that’s another re-focus I can work on…..making music for ME and not expecting anyone else to even care!

On that note, I DO miss playing the drums very much – mostly with a band duh.  There’s something to be said for melding with a band.  A few months ago Edgar and I were listening to some older song we did in the 90’s….listening to his brother Eric’s guitar playing…..listening to more recent recordings from me playing at church.  It’s kind of surreal on both counts – looking back at “our youth” like that, and also realizing wow!  That was some awesome fun times and the music was pretty good, too!  But mostly I miss FEELING the music, becoming a part of it, knowing exactly what is needed and when, and only dropping a drumstick once in a while…..

And that reminds me!  At my last “corporate” job, we had staff meetings every week which included worship time.  I was the main drummer for a while…..I think it was during Christmas one year and I was kind of bored.  Drums are not that big with Christmas carols, you know?  Anyway, one song DID have drums of sorts and I was playing, but being kind of blasé with everything.  It was a moment when the music was playing but people were praying.  All of a sudden, I hit the high hat coming up with the drumstick in my right hand and BAM – it flew out of my hand and landed JUST out of reach to my left.  Dang!  So I tried to cover the best I could, stretching out my foot trying to get the stick, and was relieved that no one saw the fiasco happen.  (I say, yeah for praying!)  Then, later in the day while in the galley getting coffee, Wendy (accounting chick) comes up to me and says, “Gina, I so saw you drop the drumstick!  You were trying to be so sly!”  Do you know how many years I had to hear about that!  LOL

So anyway, if you know of old people trying to be young with a band who needs a drummer, let me know!

Oh, and I haven’t forgotten about the Disneyland pics…..but I think they were accidenally deleted.  Still checking.  In the mean time, here are some funny ones from Easter.  Yeah, sorry I didn’t get dolled up for these……you can see them by clicking here.  It is stored in Facebook, so email or comment me if you have any problems.

OH, and I was fortunate enough to have a massage last night at a location here in SCV called Massage Envy!  They are GREAT, reasonably priced, and boy did they get the stress out of me for HALF the cost of Glen Ivy!  If you are near this area, let me know and I can get you discount entrance!  Seriously!

Gina OUT!

If you could…..

……….call up that one person from your past to say you missed him/her, even still loved him/her, would you?

………apologize for the thing you did to a relative years and years ago, would you?

………kiss for hours and hours, never worrying about anything else, would you?

……….forget about the past and live in the moment, would you?

……….think about someone you lost and forget everything but the good times, would you?

……….fight off the feeling of helplessness and sorrow, and take ONE STEP forward, would you?

……….laugh at yourself long and hard, would you?

……….treat one stranger with kindness, with no strings attached…..would you?

I hope you would…….

Okay, I Am a Quitter….and NOT

So, due to many factors (my mom’s poor health, the long hours at work, and such) I decided to put my MBA on hold right now.  That kind of makes me a quitter!  But I am cool with that.  On the other hand, my friend Sonya posted on her Facebook (FB) tonight that she was thinking of doing the Orange County Mud Run in July.  You may remember Sonya as the friend I did boot camp with last summer.

Well, in the course of 15 minutes, I called Kenny (who has been wanting to do a 5k for the longest time) and sent a message to Kirstie as well.  I signed myself and Kenny up for the event and told Sonya!  AND, I had a specific training plan set up for me so that I can actually RUN the mud as much as possible!  I start Monday!  Woohoo!

What’s funny is that just today I was thinking that I needed SOMETHING to get me working out again.  Isn’t God amazing to answer THOUGHTS???  LOL  I hope I am this excited when I start working on running, which is NOT one of my most favorite things to do.

For more info on the run, check out this site.

I will try to update you as things move forward…..

Crazy…..

Okay, I am at work (YES!, I add, I AM working on my day off!  Gasp!) and waiting for some info from our new San Diego restuarant and thought I’d post a blog.  My boredom is your reward!  🙂

So, a friend is having this online “debate” of sorts with someone who used to be their teacher or youth pastor or something.  The essence of his stance is that Christians cannot drink, dance, or sin – well because that would test the whole grace theory and is wrong.  And I WILL agree that we, as Christians (well, for those of my readers who ARE Christians….) should not TRY to sin just because we know we will be forgiven (or, more theologically correct would be “we know we are already forgiven”).  We should not say “well, I probably know this is wrong, but I am gonna do it anyway because I was promised salvation.”  But to say we STOPPED SINNING when we became Christians is a crock of you-know-what.

However, the context of the argument was raised because some “self professed Christians” had shared publicly that they could do things like drink beer, go to clubs to dance, and still be very spirit filled.  The pastor disagreed, saying – to paraphrase – “people who don’t even go to church have no business talking about God”.

Now, I am just a human, and as such am very flawed.  And I was not directly involved with this debate, and may now be focusing on one small point he was making and may even be taking it out of context.  But I CAN say, I have been involved with enough Christians who have held the view that, if you are a Christian, you are 1) without sin or stop sinning all together (at least, you must to REALLY be a Christian) and 2) have to spend all extra time in church or you are taking the chance of losing your salvation.

Case in point – when my friend wrote back quoting the Bible/Paul where he said he struggled everyday with sin, the pastor wrote back and said, “well, that was before he was a STRONG Christian!”  His response has NO reference in the Bible at all, but rather the dogma of his faith! And another former pastor chimed in with more verses by Paul that indicated it was an ongoing struggle….

Why am I sharing all of this now?  Well, I am personally tired of “the righteous” taking their seats of judgment and acting like they have somehow found “the way” to perfection.  Like going to church 4 days a week or women only wearing dresses or never watching movies.  I argue that some of the very people in these sort of congregations are the most unhealthy spiritual people on earth!  I mean seriously, I went to a very “righteous” church last year and someone hit my car in the parking lot and dented it badly…….and didn’t leave a note!  On one hand, I thought “well, we are all sinners, what can I expect?” but on the other I thought, “I just sat thru a sermon saying how this group of people were above the rest of the world because they followed very precise rules.”  Yet I have been hit by non-Christians who have left notes on my cars.  Hmmmmm.  Morality is not exclusively a Christian thing perhaps.

And what about the Sunday School Teacher that is accused of murdering that 9-year-old girl in Tracy, CA?  If “going to church” and “not drinking beer” means you are “righteous”, what happened here?  Or, can it be said that every beer-drinking person is horrible?  I think not.

Now, admittedly, I am judging so am no better than anyone I am ranting against.  And, as the “salt of the earth” Christian DO have standards and a challenge to be different from the world.  But, as such, I contend that more damage is done when the “zealots” of the world scream on their corners like some crazy Pharisee – not out of love, but out of pride.  Pride?  Yes, in that moment I believe this person felt we was above my friend and anyone other BROTHER OR SISTER IN CHRIST because they were “more righteous” based on OUTWARD ITEMS (going to church, abstaining from beer, etc.)  When the BIBLE tells us the heart is what is true, and what God sees.  Finally, I will say this again – I am saved thanks to no part of ME…..I am not worthy of salvation.  I suck.  But for the blood of Christ, I would be toast.  And He saved me and I am now His child.  ONLY CHRIST HAS A RIGHT TO FEEL RIGHTEOUS, AND I AM ONLY RIGHTEOUS BECAUSE OF HIS BLOOD, NOT ANYTHING I CAN “DO”.  And I argue that, if that is the case, what now can I do to cause my salvation to end?  Because, if I truly have the power to do that, I am more powerful than Christ Himself!

But I am rambling.  and I am not a theologian.  And I don’t know, I kind of wish more Christians would leave room for the Holy Spirit to do His job and stop acting like God…….or maybe rebuke out of LOVE instead of pride…….

Gina OUT