…..like how your friends dry up for no explainable reason.  Oh, I have my ideas for sure, but am still amazed.  I have been through hell and back, have been treated like crap, and where are my so called friends?  I am talking about the ones that I thought were supportive, not the ones that have been by my side from day one.  WHERE DID YOU ALL GO?

So you know what?  Tonight, as I sit here wondering what the hell happened, something amazing has occurred to me – maybe you weren’t my friends after all, huh?  So, if you see that email I wrote you and now feel guilty for not responding, don’t bother okay?  I don’t need you.

For those of you who HAVE checked up on me and showed love – you know who you are – thank you.

And that is the last pity post you will see from me, at least for this week!

Many of you won’t know what DWC means, and that’s okay.  Some of you will, though, and this post is for YOU.

I am sorry that I wasn’t able to say goodbye, to tell those of you who know me (and maybe love me) how much you have blessed me.  Know that the future provided is a win/win and that I am fine.  I have learned so much, have felt pain for sure, but look to the future with a strong spirit and excitement for what God has in store for me.  I know there will be bumps along the way and I may even have days when I think about you and wish things were different.  But mostly, I will remember the good times; the laughter we shared, the goofiness that seemed to be always present, and the ways our lives intertwined as we walked through life together.  And that, my friends, is better than anything else I could have hoped for.

My only request – SOMEONE needs to become the loudest phone talker, okay?  And keep the rubber bands flying, at all costs.

I hope you still come to this blog.  I hope you keep in touch.  And I hope you are blessed with each day!

You are a highly spontaneous person who always likes to try new things. Novel and unpredictable situations don’t bother you; instead you find them challenging and exciting.

You tend to be focused and resourceful and you are able to juggle a lot of projects at the same time; as a result you are sometimes a whirlwind of activity.

You have a firm grip on reality and enjoy living in the present tense. But you have a keen imagination that enables you to lift off from time and space to be remarkably creative.

You are humorous. You are able to laugh at yourself, and you like entertaining others.

You have a deep sense of compassion. You can show genuine insight into the needs of others; you are good at listening and talking; and you express a genuine desire to be helpful.

Yet you are easy-going. Your tolerance for others and their beliefs, your lack of prejudice, your ability to compromise and your occasional antics make you popular with others and a great companion.

JUST DON’T READ IT AND DECIDE FOR YOURSELF, LEAVE A COMMENT!

…..and other reasons I am slapping my forehead! (NOT to diss my Italian relatives or heritage, but you’ll understand in a minute!)

Italians stereotypically have big tempers. I have manifested this trait once or twice in my lifetime. (Well, maybe more than that!) However, I have ALSO learned that doing so often messes things up or at least doesn’t really help the situation! Case in point, check out my knuckle after I decided to punch my steering wheel:

(UPDATE:  However, upon further reflection, I admit that perhaps this can’t entirely be blamed on my Italian temper!  My Dad, who is NOT Italian, once hit something and busted his hand open pretty bad.  So, I apologize to my Italian relatives who are currently calling Cousin Guido to help shut me up……..)

Fact 2: I noticed the problem today mostly because I NEED MY HANDS TO TALK!  (UPDATE:  This IS entirely an Italian trait…..)

Fact 3: I am very talented, beautiful, and intelligent……oh, and modest!

There you go, Gina out!

Justice may be fleeting, even non-existent in your life right now.  The pain you feel from the hands of others is horrible, and I seethe with righteous anger.  Yet, I know that the Lord is with you as the fruits of His spirit are truly evident in your life – love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.  As these are evidenced in all aspects of your life, who can truly believe the vile words placed against your character and love?  I ask you this – what fruits have your tormentors manifested?  I offer hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions, and so much more.  So perhaps you should feel sorry for them, for they do not live with Christ as you do but dwell in their royal garb, presenting their self-professed holiness and separate themselves from those whom Christ loves.

Yet I know your pain is real.  Your tears are wet on your cheeks.  The purity in which you offered the talents that God has given you have been torn from you and shattered with abuse.  I know this, and I am so sorry.  I wish I could take away the pain, yet it surrounds you deeply.  I am sorry, I cry with you, and I pray for it to subside.

Yes, I love you, with the purity of sisters – as much as I love myself as guided by the Lord’s own words.  This love will not be tainted but the world’s filth or accusations of others.  THANK YOU for being a TRUE, HONORABLE, LOYAL, and CHRISTIAN friend to me and so many others.  I, for one, can’t imagine anyone as wonderful and real as you and I will never shy from this knowledge, for it is the truth.  I hope you believe me when I say more people acknowledge this truth than your tormentors, for the truth shines bright on a hill and cannot be hidden.  And the fruits of your tormentors will be seen for years to come as more lives and good names are tarnished with their filth and self-righteous sin.  Yet, even when it hurts so much to do so, we are called to love them even with their black hearts.  We cannot become like them, ever.

You are a wonderful friend, a better mother, and an amazing human being.  I rejoice that God created you!

Once again, I am writing this as the show airs……I am SO EXCITED!

Song 1

David C – omw I loved his rendition of the U2 song! He still hasn’t found what I was looking for, but I have found a new idol in DC (sorry Justin!)

David A – Elton John is one of my favorites, my friend says he “did more unique things with the song”. I think he did a great job, but maybe I am biased to DC. Dang it, Simon gave first round to DA and now my friend is texting me nanner nanner points! Dang!
2nd Song – neither song really jumped out at me, but I preferred DC’s rendition. DA’s just seemed boring to me. But yet again Simon overruled me! (Yep, still getting nanner nanner texts…..)

3rd Song – I am done saying the sang dang thing!

All I can say is, VOTE FOR DAVID C!

So, I know I called Syesha out many times, but at least this week I was right! The finals will face off between the Davids! Of course, I am hoping David C wins, who has been my favorite from the beginning. I might have to vote several times for the bugger next week!

Okay, so that’s my update about American Idol.

Yesterday I had another special one-on-one day with Kenny. Josh was seeing Speed Racer for the second time with his grandma, and Kenny wanted to be with me instead. (Ah, sweet boy!) So we hung out, did some shopping, watched some TV……it was nice. I really love that kid! We connect on a level that’s hard to explain – he is very advanced emotionally and we are both very, very goofy together.

On a side note, today I am getting a new tattoo. I will NOT tell you what it is, but will post a picture later today or tomorrow. Dun dun dun!

Also, today is my little brother’s birthday! David is now 38, which is freaking funny because I still call him my little brother! LOL HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID! I LOVE YOU!

Okay, that’s all I got right now. Gina out.

Okay, sorry for the delay.  This will be a short post.

David A – I think he did OKAY, the Chris Brown song WAS kind of silly for him though.

Syesha – she was OKAY, I think she’s trying a bit too hard and the dancing, well, I don’t like it.

David C – still my favorite, although he was off on the Switchfoot song at the beginning.

Gina’s Call – I think Syesha is gonna go, she is talented but even Paula had harsh words for her.  I believe the Final is gonna be all about the Davids.

We shall see!