….the harder they fall. Or so the saying goes.

Today, my world has been shattered – completely. I am writing with a broken heart. Why? For years I have held fast to a truth on earth apart from my faith in Christ. A truth that has defined everything I measure my life by – how to act, how to think, how to love – how to be. These beliefs were solidified when I accepted Christ as my personal Savior, but have been a part of me for my entire life. And today, I found out they are all wrong.

For these beliefs were based on a person who I’ve defined in my heart and grown my heart to copy, someone who I have built on such a large pedestal that I forgot this person was human, with flaws. Further, today I found out how very flawed this person is…..so much like the kind of person I always said I wouldn’t be. And quite honestly, I am completely devasted.

I seriously don’t know how tomorrow can come when things are so wrong in the world. I am spinning and no longer have the heart I thought would never leave me. But for Christ, I would be lost in a great abyss, but the darkness is still very real.